Dharma Bum Life Program - Master Slideshow

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Week 8 Guest Speaker - Dharma Bum Jeff


My thoughts from last night?



After almost crying and almost shitting my pants (the power of fear), I realized you weren't really telling me (I don't want to speak for the others in the group) anything I didn't know already.... you were only telling me things I didn't want to deal with!



Two months ago, I was fortunate enough to get a glimpse of reality... to see how things could be if I committed to a lifetime of diligent practice. I was offered the food I have longed for for 27 years. This shook my world. For two months, I've been doing some community service, trying to learn how to meditate... Now the program is about to end: what am I going to do with all that I learned these weeks?



I can't go back to the old Julia 'cause the way I see the world has changed. It's time for me to stop goofing around, to stop commiting whenever I'm not too sad/ too busy for it. This is also why I questioned my thoughts/ decisions these past days: how do I make everything fit? What parts do I want to keep of the old Julia that "fell apart"?


I thank you for your words.... for your reality check. Your words had a strong impact on me last night... You made Buddhism real. You showed me that you can "live" Buddhism. No bullshit.

Finally I solved the puzzle that's kept me intrigued these past weeks: what do I want? I want to help others as much as the DBLP (especially Maggie and you) has helped me.


Thanks again (I really, really, really, really mean it),


Dharma Bum Julia



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